It's after 1 am and Lyla has just fallen asleep for the night. My sweet angel has been sleeping through the night for the last two weeks or so, and she is making this whole motherhood thing seem way too easy. Every time I look at her I notice something new and adorable...like the way she folds her hands when she is nursing, or how she plays with her hair. When she gets excited she kicks both of her legs and waves both arms as she lights up with a smile. I never pictured myself as the type of woman who would enjoy being home with a newborn...especially at 22! They say that having a baby changes your life in a profound way...that your life will never be the same. I think that's true, but not in a negative way. While it may seem that I have given up my life as a free woman, it is my daughter that makes me truly free. No matter how bad my day is, or how stressful the rest of my life may be, looking at her reminds me that I am on this earth for a greater purpose. Tomorrow will be better because she is in my life, and so is her daddy. Lyla reminds me that while no one is perfect, I will always try to be perfect for her. I always tried to envision what my life would be like when I had a baby...what I would have accomplished. But what I realize now is that she is here to shape my life for me, and push me to accomplish all the things I dream about, because all of those dreams are better realized simply because she is here. She has become part of what I hope to accomplish...to be a great mom...to be my daughters' friend and always have her respect. Being a mom sets me free because I am able to love in a way that I never thought possible. I love her daddy, but I live to love my daughter. I can't wait to see what the coming years will hold, and I can't wait to see what Lyla surprises with me tomorrow.
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